Sunday, July 27, 2008

Happy Birthday Alanna


I miss you.

11 comments:

Erin said...

Happy Birthday to DeeDee too! Fortunately, I am not missing her. We had a lovely time at brunch yesterday.

Louie said...

I miss her too. Sometimes, it gets unbearable. I hope your collective birthdays are a sweet as possible despite the bitter absence of Alanna.

Erin said...

Thanks, it has been bitter sweet. The tears have been coming often.

Yesterday, I got a call from "Alanna" on my cell phone, with Sean's voice. I guess I need to edit it. Up until now, I was not able to "erase her".

I still have 5 messages from her on my phone. One is telling me that she called just to say, "I love you". I love her too.

Crying again. Ugh.

Mars Girl said...

Just the other day, some people on my young widows groups were trying to figure out how to save messages from their cell phones into some other media so that they could keep it forever. Which is totally healthy, if you ask me--I mean, geesh, I have tapes of me and my brother talking that I still keep. The only difference is that he's still alive. So it's perfectly healthy to want to save that kind of thing... I listen to my wedding video once in awhile just to remember what Mike's voice sounded like.

Let me check if anyone solved the problem of how to permanently save those messages somewhere so that they are not forever floating in the ether of cell phone voice mail...

Erin said...

That would be great!

Mars Girl said...

Okay, there were several techy solutions offered that I didnt quite understand, involving purchasing expensive equipment from Radio Shack. It all basically amounted to finding a tape recorder and turning up the phone really loud to record it. If you have speaker phone capability, it would probably be easier.

Someone said they think there's a way through your phone company to backup voice mail messages or have them forwarded somewhere, but I dont know how true this is. I wish you could somehow take them off your voicemail by having them download to an mp3 file you can email yourself or something... Why hasnt anyone come up with this sort of function??

Erin said...

Not sure. But, I thank you for your valiant effort to help me preserve the memory of my sister.

It was a rough weekend.

I think there is a way to tape record on the computer too, not sure how yet.

Mars Girl said...

Well, I urge you to record it. I wish I still had some stuff with my husband's voice on it... like our old answering machine message or something.

I totally understand about bad weekends... I still get them from time to time... Death is easier to accept than the ache of missing someone is to control...

Carole said...

I could not figure out how to access the comments. So much for my computer savvy. I still shed a tear when I think of Alanna. She is still on my cell phone so I can hear her voice. Children shouldn't die before parents. God must have wanted her with him. Wicked stepmother, Carole

Erin said...

Carole,
So good to hear from you! Wickedly funny!
This is something that we all have in common, this grief of ours.

By the way, you seem to be getting savvier by the day on that there computer.

Jim said...

E - Thanks for clueing me in to look at your blog. I saw her picture and my heart broke all over again. I've needed to cry more and haven't been able again until the last few days. It's not fun, but it's what I needed. Thank you. You continue to bless me.