I have been thinking a lot about my words and actions-- how they tumble out of me and what relationship they have to one another. I have found, that in my most recent past (years) my words and actions have been out of alignment. This of course, suggests some kind of conflict within me.
This circumstance both intrigues me and stymies me for I know that my happiness is directly related to how I manage this alignment.
So how do you align words and actions? At the time I say the words they seem good or actually are good but the follow through is hard.
It seems like either toning down the words to reflect the real deal or summoning up the will power to follow my inner wisdom is necessary.
I am tired of the exhaustion that comes from the constant back and forth. I want rest. I want to feel fulfilled.
Even though it is small, I have felt great alignment with my Lenten promise of giving up sugar. It has been difficult to keep this promise-- but each time I do, I feel good and feel like I have been true to myself. This is just one example. Now, I need to keep other promises I have made to myself. This is where I pray for strength.